Quiet things no one ever knows

" I am not perfect. I do not live to be. But before you start pointing fingers, make sure your hands are clean."

This quote is inked on my chest. Somewhere along the lines I became this thing I'm not. For the people out there who judge, be mindful that you aren't so innocent yourself. Hopefully you'll catch a glimpse of the REAL me.

Sometimes I feel sad knowing that it really is over between us, and that there is no going back. And I would be lying if I told you that I didn’t think about just sending you that text, showing up to see you and just fitting right back into that space with you that I used to belong. Except, the space where I used to fit, doesn’t fit me anymore. The embrace that would come from your arms being around me wouldn’t give me the same feeling, and kissing you wouldn’t send those same lightning bolts down my body. It seems like it would be so easy to go backwards, but the truth of it is that no matter how much you miss something, or how fun a memory seems to be when you look back on it, you can’t go back. Relationships are like that too. I remember he had told me once, “you can’t make friends with old friends. You have to find new friends”. Well, I guess the same goes with this, too. The past has passed, and it is now just a fragment in our mind, a place we can partially visit in our mind, but that’s it. So instead of trying to live in a place that doesn’t exist, let it go and remember that things will work out. I have faith in that. But you can’t go chasing it either. You have to let go of those chains and fly away, and never look back.